Feelings

-Why do i feel like I'm missing something? Why is it, when I look at my life i see such great mile stones but non of them seem to measure up to my expectations? Why do i feel like everyday at this desk is a waste of my life? I see my soul and its ready to burst out of my chest. My hands tired of seeing this black key board. How they wish to hold a hammer, swing a gold club, clap and rejoice with the Lord. My mind is dull, tired of the same thing day after day. Plowing the fields of corporate America all day and returning home to rest for another days hard work. Where can i go? What can i do today?
- Lets stop asking questions. Lets change my way of thinking. Right here, Right now, I am making a stand for myself. I have a banner on this blog with wild flowers in an open field. Full of adventure and possibilities. That is John, that is my soul. I do not have because i do not ask. Well Lord, i ask you now, over a blog of all things. Lord i want to be free of this desk, Lord use me, Lord i surrender my hand, mind, body and soul. Use them Lord. Take me away from this, close the doors on this chapter of my life. I ask you to start a new page with me. All things are in your time lord; but i know that only through you is anything possible so I rest in that.

31What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."[a] 37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.